I have to confess to you my readers that this last year has been quite a year. The ministry trips went great. As I shared the Word of God, He gave the increase. People were touched and changed. He was as Faithful as He always is. Thank you Father, let your Word be established forever in the hearts of all those who heard it!
I have decided to share my inner world and life with you, because I believe it will be revealing and helpful. There is no other reason except that I think sharing and talking will bring strength to those who struggle; and we do struggle. Life is full of challenge and struggle. It’s nice to know that God really does care and that He is the one who leads us, through His Word, into victory! No matter where we’ve been!
I picked one of my favorite books to read again about two weeks ago. I opened the front page and began reading…. this is what it said:
“With admiration and gratitude, to my Christian brothers and sisters (some now in Soviet prisions) who will never see this book, but who risked so much to circulate Ivan’s story throughout the USSR and the West –
and to the young Russian soldier who endangered himself to me on a rainy Moscow street and who received a small New Testiment with the words, (this is the richest gift you could give me.)”
The Book is VANYA by Myrna Grant,forwarded by Brother Andrew. It is the true story of a young soldier in the Russian Army in the Seventies. I hope you’ll get a copy and read it. It is an amazing story of the power of LOVE!
I then read the next page, which had this one statement written on it…
“In keeping silent about evil, in burying it deep within us, so that it appears nowhere on the surface, we are implanting it and it will rise up a thousandfold in the future.”
The Gulag Archipelago
It was in hearing that statement that I knew I needed to share the journey I have been on for the past few years. It is a journey that has re-shaped me as a person and a believer. It has challenged me to the very core of my being and back again. The Master’s Hand is gifted beyond our understanding; He knows how to work in us as He knows us better than we know ourselves.
I remember praying a simple prayer back in 2004. This prayer was, “make me an instrument of your Love o Lord. Please reveal the things that are hindering me from becoming all that you want me to be. Bring the hidden things up so that I can see them”… and the word that came to me was…
“You are on the journey to become selfless Susan!” “Do you know what you have asked for?” —I have to say as I look back on this road I have travelled… “NO FATHER I REALLY DID NOT KNOW WHAT I WAS ASKING.” However, friends I have learned to trust like I’ve never trusted before. I have come to a place where Religion and pretense are becoming so clear to me. I believe, like Jesus said… “If anyone wishes to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me! God is not fooled with pretension.
Oh yes, God has good things for us… great things for us, but He also has transformation in mind for us as well. This past year I celebrated my 30th birthday as a Christian. I have come to know that I am not just a RELEVANT CHURCH GOER; ONE OF THE GANG!—NO, I am a true Disciple of Christ transformed and remolded by His Word, and the ugliness of this world is fading away.
LORD, MAKE ME AN INSTRUMENT OF YOUR LOVE!
Please come join me as I begin to blog, I mean really blog. My heart is full, my hands are ready writers… The Journey Begins!